aliasofwestgate: (wickedsmile)
Hello everyone!

Yeah it's been forever since i've posted here since i'm primarily on tumblr nowadays. But i figured i'd wander back to this to make sure it's still up and active.

It's beena  long couple of years for me. Grandma passing away. Last year my mom got diagnosed with breast cancer. We caught it early and she got it removed. But we had to slog through 6 months of chemotherapy this year from january to late june. She's on the slow road to recovery now. She's having more good than bad days, which is awesome. Besides her Fibro, diabetes and teh RA in her ankles and lower back, it's all working otu slowly.

The BEST news has been my brother moving out in late june and taking his drama and bullshit with him. He didn't do shit to help mom along with chemo, just dumped it all on me. Then got mad when i was concentrating on helping mom and not his shit. He didn't seem to care at all that she wasn't able to do a lot of things for that half year.  I had enough dealing with that and my own health issues.

For my side of it all? It was keeping enough spoons free for myself while helping mom out. I got onto MI medicaid so i have help with my own pain management. Now that things are settling down and i'm back to slowly handling the crippling anxiety (with meds) that came out of livign with my asshole brother and the stress of helping mom out? It's a good thing. My pain is managed, at the least. Now i need to get around to working again. Whether i do it from home or do something else? We'll see.

I'm hoping that i'll be able to write again sooner or later. 
aliasofwestgate: (john smile)

I finally got around to getting my paws on the BBC Sherlock OST. I was right in that they are absolutely amazing on their own merit. The mix of orchestra and the older period instruments and modern score tricks is what caught my ear originally. It really hasn’t changed my opinion in 2 years and two series. The stuff is frankly amazing in how it carries the story and doesn’t intrude. Which is pretty much all i ask of a score.

David Arnold and Michael Price are so commended for putting this together. The tiny bits of ambient tossed into the mixture of old and new also just MAKE it. It’s subtle, unless you catch it at the right time or have a trained ear like my crazy self. ^^;;

I have yet to really pin down a favorite, as i’m on my first listening of them. I will soon enough.

First impressions though? An incredible fusion of period victorian instrumentals and instruments with all the modern trappings to add to the sheer substance of the sound. The movements are layered and nuanced in ways worthy of oscar winning film scores. It’s just hard to beat things like this. Severely hard to beat them. Fusions always catch my ear cause they can be blatant or they can be subtle and devious. This is the latter.  It starts obvious and then draws you into the ambient parts without pause till you drool even harder.

It feeds into the growing relationship between John and Sherlock as they figure each other out in the first series, right up until that cliffhanger that had the fans howling across the world. This is exactly what a good score is supposed to do. Enhance the story without words. Then keeps you there in Series 2 and just adds even more to the shocks, horrors, and joys of it all. Series 3 is highly anticipated and i’m up for more than just John punching him in the face twice, crying and tackling him with joy. I want to hear the score that goes with it. :D

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PS. The bint is in jail because she skipped out on her community service and didn't pay her fine. BHAHAHAHAH. Sorry, but i can't help it. Now i'm mostly just tired because cranky nephew is cranky. He's a stroppy 15 month old and keeping up with him is nuts. Mom and i can't do it on a constant basis, and scott knows it. He's going to have to arrange for help, and be an active daddy while he's here. For now? I've been gloating because she's gone, when not falling over from going after my imp of a nephew.

Mood:: 'tired' tired
Music:: Deductoion and Deception--Sherlock s2 OST
aliasofwestgate: (WHAT?)
My brother is an ungrateful little shit who can't be arsed to bother with housework the rest of the time when he's working. But he gets any time off and does a small portion of it and expects me to be fucking grateful? Especially when he starts bitching that i don't do anything? Who's doing majority of the cooking while he's working all day? Certainly not him! I do a lot more cleaning than he does, and he thinks his girlfriend does it all? HAH. I just do it when he's  not paying attention and he discounts it entirely. Or he's too busy fighting with her to bother. So of course i do 'nothing'.

This is after a christmas where all that happened was that he all but ruined it (even with company present). He and the daft bint he calls his girlfriend did nothing but fight all christmas day, and most of christmas eve. He wonders why i make a point of keeping out of his way except for when i have to run damage control for mom and my neice sarah?

He bitched about the litter box not being emptied (after i'd just done it and teh cast used it at least twice in the meantime), when he hasn't paid any attention to it himself beyond bitching at me to clean in the last freaking 8 weeks.  Seriously. Where the FUCK does he get off?

I'm still job hunting, but fucking hell he just needs to get off his high horse. I can and do call him on this shit but he HAS to be right. He wants to be an alpha male and its just not possible in this house, not with me around as the older sister. He's just not suited for it and he's got it all wrong. He's being more abusive than anything else, verbally. He's been breaking things again, and mom's threatened to call the cops.  Even if we do, i don't expect him to keep with any of his anger management requirements. He's ignored it before or refused to see the counselors, so i dont' expect him to listen time either. 

He respects none of us in this house, and i pretty much call him on his shit because he has no respect for me. I can't give any respect to anything but his privacy, but he certainly isn't getting anything other than that from me. I've always had issues with abused authority and he will NEVER have that authority as long as he keeps acting the way he is. Nor my respect. He either learns it and earns it back, or he'll never get it again from me. I never gave it to bosses that abused it, and he wont' get it as long as he continues on this line

Sorry i've ranted, but i've mostly had it. He's driving me nuts today with his rotten attempts at being superior and being nothing but a passive aggressive hypocritical asshole. He needs help, but refuses to take it when its offered and otherwise doesn't give a shit who he hurts. He shouldnt' even be thinking of himself, he should be thinking of his kids.  He's 28, he acts like he's 12. 

I'll do another post on my brain latching onto fandom in the last few weeks, but not yet. Maybe in a day or two. Gods.
Mood:: 'bitchy' bitchy
aliasofwestgate: (WHAT?)
posted by [personal profile] aliasofwestgate at 01:34pm on 20/11/2011 under , ,
Play happy family and feed your daughter, and your girlfriend but don't get anything for mom. This is after you butter her up on friday(by making breakfast) morning to ask if the idiot girlfriend could move back IN with us.  Then you yell at her all morning today because you don't get your way, and don't even ask me if i want to say yes or no to getting your asshole girlfriend's stuff to bring back here. Guess what, i'm saying no if you DO ask. She doesn't deserve my civility, she doesn't even talk to me unless she wants something from me. I'm polite to her only because its my nature, and you still won't tell the shit to my face that you yell at mom about to MY face, you freaking coward.

I have a pounding headache no thanks to your tv up full blast since 9am and your voices on just as loud, and your own swearing about the dog and the cat because they don't dance to your tune.  The dog is TERRIFIED of you because you yell at her, and the cat doesn't give a shit what you think. I live right next door to you, but you carry on as if i'm not there. At all hours of the day. I doubt you'll change if i do get a job. I was more considerate of you when i was working when you were little, asshole. You aren't of me, when you have a job and i'm still hunting for one.

No love,
Me`

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My younger brother is an asshole but i had to get this out. As much as i love fandom i'm tired of this shit. He pulls it every chance he gets. Stupid bint of a girlfriend may be back in the house, but i give her a week before it goes to shit and she leaves again. This promise of 200$ a month? I doubt will be kept. Or if it is? Will go for maybe 2 months before he starts making excuses for not giving her anything. Meanwhile, teh bills to keep the house up? Will rise like crazy because the bint has no sense of organization or the ability to conserve power or resources. She can't keep a house. She has no ability whatsoever as much as he claims she does more than i do. Mom and i just need to leave. He can keep the house up, and drown in bills by himself. That way he can't blame anyone but himself.

I'm watching some Ultraman Cosmos today at some point, maybe it'll cheer me up a bit. I'm just tired right now. So very tired of this shit and i doubt it'll improve at all once i get a job. He doesn't look after mom the way he should, and he never will. Because he's a selfish little asshole. There are reasons i drew my boundries the minute i moved back in. He hates it that i made it clear and he knows it. Which is why he never tells me shit to my face, since he's too scared of me throwing it right back at him. I'm stronger than he is and he knows it. I've got my own pain disorder and i still kept myself up for as long as i could when i was working. I will again too.

Time to finish a few things and then run into town for an errand. Then i can attempt to relax for a little bit before the loudness and shit starts again.
Music:: Butterfly--Acid Black Cherry in my head
Mood:: 'pissed off' pissed off

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