aliasofwestgate: (wickedsmile)
Hello everyone!

Yeah it's been forever since i've posted here since i'm primarily on tumblr nowadays. But i figured i'd wander back to this to make sure it's still up and active.

It's beena  long couple of years for me. Grandma passing away. Last year my mom got diagnosed with breast cancer. We caught it early and she got it removed. But we had to slog through 6 months of chemotherapy this year from january to late june. She's on the slow road to recovery now. She's having more good than bad days, which is awesome. Besides her Fibro, diabetes and teh RA in her ankles and lower back, it's all working otu slowly.

The BEST news has been my brother moving out in late june and taking his drama and bullshit with him. He didn't do shit to help mom along with chemo, just dumped it all on me. Then got mad when i was concentrating on helping mom and not his shit. He didn't seem to care at all that she wasn't able to do a lot of things for that half year.  I had enough dealing with that and my own health issues.

For my side of it all? It was keeping enough spoons free for myself while helping mom out. I got onto MI medicaid so i have help with my own pain management. Now that things are settling down and i'm back to slowly handling the crippling anxiety (with meds) that came out of livign with my asshole brother and the stress of helping mom out? It's a good thing. My pain is managed, at the least. Now i need to get around to working again. Whether i do it from home or do something else? We'll see.

I'm hoping that i'll be able to write again sooner or later. 
aliasofwestgate: (wickedsmile)
posted by [personal profile] aliasofwestgate at 06:26pm on 14/09/2013 under ,

Gramma Tanner left us at 5am or so this morning. Hopefully she'll be happy again with Grampa and my Dad and those that left before. I'm dealing okay with it, but this was a long illness complicated by her alzhiemer's on top of that. She was a fighter all the way, even without all her memories. Beat cancer twice, raised my mom and my uncles with grampa. Was one of the first Mary Kay ladies in Ontario, Canada. Helluva role model. She was a housewife, but in no way was she inferior. Like my mom and dad, the marriage was a partnership. The way it should be.

I'll never forget her, either. Now all we can do is help mom deal, because this was her last surviving parent. Gramma was 84.

It looks like we won't be going over today, so i think i might be on for LFR tonight. Dunno. Depends on how i feel around 9pm. But it would be something to do, and i get to talk with my friends in the middle of it as well.

aliasofwestgate: (eh?)
posted by [personal profile] aliasofwestgate at 09:39am on 13/09/2013
Yeah, i'm still around. Mostly haven't been posting here for some time.

My grandma is dying, and i wanted to know those few that follow here that i won't be around for a while probably. We're on our way over to Sarnia very soon. Mom just got the call that she likely won't make it past today. 
aliasofwestgate: (wickedsmile)
Of course it's my brother's idiot girlfriend doing the aggravation. I make a comment about her son leaving his older sister's real cellphone alone. He's not even 2 years old. He doesn't know any better about throwing things. This will BREAK and it was not paid for by us. Sarah's mother would not be happy if it was destroyed by a toddler. Not at all. Of course, the bint chooses to instead snap at me to 'leave him alone, he's fine. he plays with it all the time.'. My reply. He's not old enough to know better to not throw it. It's a real cell, not an actual toy! Pretty much what my comments amount to. No minutes does NOT mean he can break his big sister's cell. 

Egads i want to kill her some days. She's been basically fighting with my brother over petty shit the last 2 days, and i expect this to last well until the new year has passed. Because she IS that petty and she hates my guts because i tell her that she has actual boundrys and to actually CONTROL HER SON. I tell her son no all the time. Not any different than her screaming it at him. I just don't scream. He tends to listen to me too. When he doesn't, he gets a swat. He understands his auntie means business, even when he's not that old yet. There are reasons i call my nephew an Imp(my nickname for him *grin*), and that's one of them. He tries to push it with everyone, including me. I just don't let him get away with everything. Exactly the way i was raised. He's a smart little thing, and i know exactly how that goes. Some of the smart ones are well behaved, then you have shit disturbers in training like my nephew. i adore him, but his mother is an uncivilized savage. I'm civil to her face, she just attempts to pick fights with me and then stomps off in a prima donna huff when i don't fall for the bait. 

But yeah, that's been pretty much standard operating procedure the last few months. I'm still job hunting and i'm enjoying the holidays on a quiet note. But otherwise? Quite ready for her to stop her shit. 

Fandom wise? BBC's Merlin ends tonight over in the UK. It'll be a while before the US gets season 5, but i'll be paying attention to my tumblr to find out. *grin* It's been a great run for a show and i still love the fandom. 
Mood:: 'annoyed' annoyed
aliasofwestgate: (eh?)
posted by [personal profile] aliasofwestgate at 03:03am on 15/09/2012 under , ,
Oh i'm still alive. Just busy with far too much for my liking and trying to keep at least marginally sane. Also: obsessing over new music from an old band that i've seen live twice and still love. The lead singer sounds a lot like Chris Cornell, but he's definitely his own creature. The band is just amazing, in and out of the studio. 

Big Wreck. One of the canadian rock bands that i can't help but love. They only had one song that got any airplay in the US and it never took off over here. Back it the late 90s, the song was called The Oaf (My Luck is Wasted). Look it up on soundclound, you wont' be dissappointed.  But they had a really successfull run in their home country, broke up around 2003-4 and then just got back together back in 2011. YAY. :D 

So their new album has two songs i'm going crazy over at the moment and trying to sort into my plotbunny filled existence while i deal with job hunting, wowcrack, and tumblr invading my life. That my family drives me nuts goes without saying. This is my way to cope. 
Music:: Wolves---Big Wreck
Mood:: 'awake' awake
aliasofwestgate: (Shoutarou)
posted by [personal profile] aliasofwestgate at 07:53pm on 23/07/2012 under ,
Still alive, i'm just up to my ears in family crazies. Which isn't new. 
Mood:: 'annoyed' annoyed
aliasofwestgate: (john smile)

I finally got around to getting my paws on the BBC Sherlock OST. I was right in that they are absolutely amazing on their own merit. The mix of orchestra and the older period instruments and modern score tricks is what caught my ear originally. It really hasn’t changed my opinion in 2 years and two series. The stuff is frankly amazing in how it carries the story and doesn’t intrude. Which is pretty much all i ask of a score.

David Arnold and Michael Price are so commended for putting this together. The tiny bits of ambient tossed into the mixture of old and new also just MAKE it. It’s subtle, unless you catch it at the right time or have a trained ear like my crazy self. ^^;;

I have yet to really pin down a favorite, as i’m on my first listening of them. I will soon enough.

First impressions though? An incredible fusion of period victorian instrumentals and instruments with all the modern trappings to add to the sheer substance of the sound. The movements are layered and nuanced in ways worthy of oscar winning film scores. It’s just hard to beat things like this. Severely hard to beat them. Fusions always catch my ear cause they can be blatant or they can be subtle and devious. This is the latter.  It starts obvious and then draws you into the ambient parts without pause till you drool even harder.

It feeds into the growing relationship between John and Sherlock as they figure each other out in the first series, right up until that cliffhanger that had the fans howling across the world. This is exactly what a good score is supposed to do. Enhance the story without words. Then keeps you there in Series 2 and just adds even more to the shocks, horrors, and joys of it all. Series 3 is highly anticipated and i’m up for more than just John punching him in the face twice, crying and tackling him with joy. I want to hear the score that goes with it. :D


PS. The bint is in jail because she skipped out on her community service and didn't pay her fine. BHAHAHAHAH. Sorry, but i can't help it. Now i'm mostly just tired because cranky nephew is cranky. He's a stroppy 15 month old and keeping up with him is nuts. Mom and i can't do it on a constant basis, and scott knows it. He's going to have to arrange for help, and be an active daddy while he's here. For now? I've been gloating because she's gone, when not falling over from going after my imp of a nephew.

Mood:: 'tired' tired
Music:: Deductoion and Deception--Sherlock s2 OST
aliasofwestgate: (pissoff)
I'm going to try to write something iv'e had boiling in my head for a while, and then i'm going to blow shit up in WoW. At the moment? I'm mostly pissed off. it's been hours worth of arguing and a whiny baby all morning long, and it just seems to get worse every day because my brother just refuses to let the bint leave him outright. I'd rather kick her out, even if i worry for the baby, she doesn't deserve to be here and she has no respect for Mom or I.  He's also an idiot who wont' file for custody while he knows she's still in town so she can't take off with the baby. Not as if there isn't enough issues with her upcoming due date for the fine for the shoplifting she did while he was in jail for 8 weeks. She'll probably go to jail, and it better be because scott will NOT pay for it. She needs to learn something. She can't play the baby card while violating the points of the reason the judge didn't slam her behind bars for stealing at least 200$ worth of merch. Frankly, neither of them have no respect for mom or i. Or the fact that this is mom's house, not his.

Blowing shit up in WoW will be quite cathartic. Especially with my brand new little dwarf fire mage on Elune. I am LOVING Pyroblast. Things go BOOM, i feel better. Writing will help the other way, with just having the feedback of fandom again because that's always a good thing, and i have a couple new fandoms to play around in besides.

Things will improve, but egads i wanna slap them both upside the head and rattle their brains. But it wouldn't do any good, and the bint probably WANTS me to slug her so she can claim i assaulted her. Because according to her 'i don't belong in this house.' when she's the one brought in without permission and this is MY family home. I'm the eldest daughter and she has far less right to be here than i do. I'm also not using my nephew for leverage so she can stay. Skank, leech, manipulative little bint. There's so much more i could call her, but like i said. blow shit up. Job hunting continues, but there's so much stupid shit going down i don't like leaving mom alone here. Especially with the bint present who does NOTHING to help her. Just eats all the food we buy.
Mood:: 'bitchy' bitchy
aliasofwestgate: (shoot a cabbie--JW)
posted by [personal profile] aliasofwestgate at 01:26pm on 11/05/2012 under , ,
I had an 'audition' of sorts for a telemarketing for charity company. I did do my best, but my sincerity wasn't enough for them. They wanted a bloody stupid cheerleader culture. Not my style. Not EVER my style. As if cold calling isn't back breaking enough to begin with! I was the choir jock, the scifi/fantasy girlgeek. I could never buy into the cheerleader culture, i started to get annoyed with it by age 11 or 12, i think. Just before high school.

The cause? i honestly liked, but i'm much better suited to retail settings. I'm allowed to improvise if need be and do what's needed. Just. Yargh. Cynicism is allowed. Not that sarcasm wasn't, but i wasn't really comfortable in that office. It would have been write ups within a week and possibly an ulcer in a month. No way, and not again.

It just reminded me of how much i changed, even when i was a lot younger. Why i basically left that whole subculture in the dust at 16 with my general 'fuck it, i'm going military' at that age. After that? It was easy to distance myself from the stupidity of thinking/acting. I will never be that ON. It's exhausting, and frankly? Bloody well INSANE.
Music:: Amgio--SHINee
Mood:: 'amused' amused
aliasofwestgate: (Inner Editor Confiscation)
posted by [personal profile] aliasofwestgate at 02:46am on 07/05/2012 under , , , ,
Dammit. i'm trying to write this detail for the Dresden/H50 fic of doom and i'm having to research That detail too. How would this particular entity perceive this family style? *throws hands up* I should just sleep on it and work on it tomorrow. Bleagh. I know enough pagan people to ask to the point where i might be able to figure out how the 'flavor' would be.  It's the only thing really blocking me from finishing this chapter and its driving me up the wall. Danny's voice is just fine, it's the critter he's talking to that's gotta be just right. My mythology bent swings between blessing and curse on nights like this.
Mood:: 'annoyed' annoyed
Music:: Take Off--2pm


27 28