Fangirl or Freek?

Let's begin with the number of things gone wrong this week.

1: Car problems: i need new Ball Joints for the Metro. Let's hope i can afford it,since i'm taking it in on monday. It's all i can do to baby that car to work and back right now.

2: Rent(bills): I'd love to have the money NOW to get all this stuff solved, but it looks to be major self budget cuts and maybe seeing if i can get that EBT(bridge) food card or something to help out. 3 months is 3 months, and i can still look for a differnt job with any luck during that time.

3: People in general: Gods..since tommorrow is my only other day off this week. I'm going NOWHERE at all. Just staying home with my internet, writing, and eating. Might even get some cleaning done just to burn off some steam. I'm that peeved at people in general! Stupid, annoying and i've seen too much of them.

All of that has jumped up to make me more stressed than anything else. I was in tears last night from mood swings from HELL last night. Somehow working today helped, mostly cause it was repetative and predictable. I know i'll feel better in the morning, but i'm just drained, tired and know some therapeudic(sp?) writing will help. It's just been a crappy week all over. Bill collectors calling(how the fuck can i pay? i'm still behind with more important things---like RENT! With a vehicle that needs fixing.)

I at least made the important first decision. The car comes first, if that's fixed, everything else will work out, i hope. Key Log i think the term is.

Now if could only throttle my roomie's damn dog. It peed in my room, right behind my BACK! The chibi kuso! *grrrrrrowwls right back at it* Yes..more murphy's law in effect. Yeesh.

I'll be lurking in Y!Chat and AIM for most of the night i think. Oh..and one good thing! I DO have all of episode 2's raw after all. Even at 98% i got the whole thing after all. Including the "Ura Sai!" Short at the end. Just watched the ep..Gojyo stole the harisen! *falls over laughing* Yes, i'll be alright. Just slightly insane at the moment. Oh wait..i'm ALWAYS insane....

Just talked with the roomie. If i can't cough up the EXTRA 400$ next month, we all have to move. Then again, he could be saying that to make me guilty too. I FUCKING HATE THIS!

It's not as if i can't get it, bad enough that he'll be getting nearly all my money next month as it is. I was planning in giving him extra week after next too. But i can't spare anything from this week's check for him to cash. It's a matter of do i eat or not. 195$ a week does not a rich girl make, and fixing the car is gonna take what i have left this week--AND this weeks check entirely. WTF fuck does he expect me to do? Find a money tree? I'm in a shit job, with shit wages.